By GS Ward
I AM Vietnam. When the U.S. normalized relations with Vietnam in 1995, I was surprised to find myself curiously empty of feelings on the subject.
August 20 is the anniversary of my father*s death in a Southeast Asian jungle. He was killed just nine days before my second birthday.
There has not been a day since that the war has
not been a part of my life. I was deprived of half my family, half my childhood, by what happened that day in Vietnam. I cannot remember ever seeing my father*s face or hearing his voice. My father is a monument in Woodlawn Cemetery, a box of grainy photographs and a frame of medals behind glass. There is a hole in my soul that will never heal on this earth.
This is the cost of war and I have paid it my
entire life. Each day since my consciousness
began, I rise to refight that battle in which my father was killed.
As a child I fought "Charlie" with a single-shot
.22 in the 100-acre "jungle" near my home in Knoxville, Tennessee.
As an adult I cannot help having a 1000-yard stare
I speak softly and never go back the same way I came. My footsteps are light and the hair on the back of my neck is like an extra set of eyes on the back of my head. These are my hereditary traits.
I do not hold animosity against the Vietnamese
people or the U.S. Government or any individual.
Vietnam is a moveable horror and Charlie can have any face. He is the enemy we all share. Charlie is the faceless Boogieman of my own private Vietnam.
Me, I feel nothing.
There is no sense of closure.
As long as there is ink in my pen and breath in my chest, I will warn my neighbors and government that the true cost of war is more than the sum total of the casualties. The debt is amortized across the generations. Those left behind by the war continue to carry the debt while the dead just sleep. There are those who would like us to forget that the Vietnam War ever happened.
While we eventually learn to live on in spite of the past, we will never forget.
We will never forget. The Writing of This Legacy Is Dedicated To The Children Never Rocked to Sleep In Father*s Arms, Because They Were Taken By War. TOM WARD
SFC - E7 - Army - Regular
Casualty was on Aug 20, 1964
Panel 01E - - Line 62 HUSH NOW GS Ward's Childhood Memory TOM PARSONS STORY A man also named Tom, wrote to me about his experience bringing the men home to the families, for final rest. Read Tom's story above. Visit The Wall Web Site A Krissy @ High Tide Made Page |