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As a child, I found myself the victim of molestation. The person involved was an adult and someone I loved and trusted. I frankly don't remember how old I was or how it started or even why I never told anyone. I do remember wishing someone would ask me specifically if I had been "touched inappropriately" but for some reason I don't understand I would not betray this person by "telling" (volunteering) information. As an adult I never knew this person, who passed away when I was a teenager. I never confronted this person with my questions of "why me?", or my anger, and I definitely did not forgive. Over the years the memories were tucked away although not entirely forgotten. I know I have been affected in subtle ways throughout my life but I couldn't change what happened and I felt it was best to forget. One day I was watching a television show hosted by a psychic medium by the name of John Edward. I'm fascinated with ideas and information about what happens to us after we leave this realm. I believe our spirit is eternal and we chose to live here on Earth for spiritual growth. On this particular episode, John had messages for a woman from her deceased husband and her father. Evidently the two men did not get along in life. She was very surprised to hear that they were very friendly on the other side. John explained that they had worked things out, but that it was much better to do so while here on Earth. He said it was important to forgive someone so that their spirit could grow. I have to say, I stopped dead in my tracks and immediately thought of this person. It never occurred to me that I even needed to forgive someone already deceased and for both our sakes! So out loud, talking to this person I could not see or feel or hear, I forgave. I also expressed my anger. I felt a tiny bit better, a little bit silly but also an odd sense of accomplishment. The next day, I confided with a close friend (who knew a little of my story) what had occurred. As I spoke the words out loud, "I forgave!" I realized that I was sincere! And as I realized this, I felt an exhilarating rush of emotion that left me breathless! I felt uplifted, an enormous burden lifted, and I felt joy! I was giddy with emotion and I felt like I was floating. I felt the person/spirit hugging me from the other side! The funny thing is, I did not realize that I had needed to forgive this person or that it was needed on the other side as well. It was truly an amazing experience and best of all, I feel this spirit around me often and it is very comforting. I believe now that to forgive is indeed Divine! It feels really, really good to write this! Please let me know if it helps anyone! |
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